Since I can't even fathom what a "good day" feels like, as it's been months. Today, was definably better than yesterday. First, as you may have noticed in the photo/youtube clip above this post, is a movie named "Adrift". I was drawn to it by the title as I once read a book named the same. Back in 1997 or 1998, when I lived on my first sailboat.
At that time, I couldn't read enough of them. Any "true account" of a sailing adventure or mishap, I viewed as a "do or don't" guide and the backdrop of being in the open ocean was always attractive to me. Even to this day. Well, after about 20 minutes into the movie, I recalled the story.
Did I like it? Absolutely! But there is a caveat. I had remember the logistics of the events that made it into a book, now movie, but I forgot the minor themes in it. Namely, isolation and death. On the surface not a great pick-me-up feeling. But it was. Like the book. And as misery loves company, this film fit perfectly into my recent situation.
The other reason I wanted to see it was to be in a new environment. Nothing to remind me of Lily. And it worked. I got lost in the story up until the very end. It was playing in a really nice theater only about a 1/4 mile from my house but felt a world away. Just interacting with the ticket-taking-lady, the refreshment-kid and a lastly, a very nice woman wo was witnessing my extra careful gait while navigating the dark stairs inside the theater.
All of which physically made me feel better.
The second event(s) is that I spoke to my brother, plus a friend called me who I haven't spoken to in months. While they don't know it, they also broke my daily isolation that I am routinely stuck in.
So, while I can't say that I'm happy at the moment, I am not critically sad.
And that's a win, in my book.
At that time, I couldn't read enough of them. Any "true account" of a sailing adventure or mishap, I viewed as a "do or don't" guide and the backdrop of being in the open ocean was always attractive to me. Even to this day. Well, after about 20 minutes into the movie, I recalled the story.
Did I like it? Absolutely! But there is a caveat. I had remember the logistics of the events that made it into a book, now movie, but I forgot the minor themes in it. Namely, isolation and death. On the surface not a great pick-me-up feeling. But it was. Like the book. And as misery loves company, this film fit perfectly into my recent situation.
The other reason I wanted to see it was to be in a new environment. Nothing to remind me of Lily. And it worked. I got lost in the story up until the very end. It was playing in a really nice theater only about a 1/4 mile from my house but felt a world away. Just interacting with the ticket-taking-lady, the refreshment-kid and a lastly, a very nice woman wo was witnessing my extra careful gait while navigating the dark stairs inside the theater.
All of which physically made me feel better.
The second event(s) is that I spoke to my brother, plus a friend called me who I haven't spoken to in months. While they don't know it, they also broke my daily isolation that I am routinely stuck in.
So, while I can't say that I'm happy at the moment, I am not critically sad.
And that's a win, in my book.
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