Let’s document this....

I heard voices for the third night in the past week. It's always the same words: "[My Name!]..[My Name!]...[My Name!]" It sounds like Lily is on other side of our sliding glass door, which is nearly sound proof. Desperately try to get my attention. I can't tell if I am dreaming or not. Her voice calling me is muffled. So she starts, yelling.

I am aware enough to know it can't be Lily but I want to believe it is.

I generally open my eyes and stay completely still, when that happens. In the darkness of our bedroom.

Listening in between the snoring of our girls.

Almost frozen-like.

And Scared.